As a Christian I pray and go to Church.Every Sunday I am there and usually I am serving in one way or the other. I always love helping out and being part of my Church. I mean I have a pretty awesome Church filled with family members. That is not what this post is about, though.
This post is about my prayers. I have been praying, “God am I doing things right? Am I too busy? God am I doing what you want me to? How is this helping, Lord? I really don’t see any good fruits coming from what I’m doing. And God, what about my family? When will you show up in their lives? I am sure all of them could use your strength and love. But on another topic, what about my future? What is going on there? Do you have a husband for me? Am I suppose to be single? What about that guy over there, is he the one? Should I be looking for some one? Should I be open to that other guy over there, God? And God what about those who are following you right now? What can I do to help them? Can you heal them too? God, you are keeping them safe or at least where you want them to be right? God, you have everyone in your hands right?”
The worst part about all that prayer is that I haven’t really stopped lately to listen to the answer. He still answers my prayers, at least the ones where it’s his actions that are the answer. Of course, I was looking and waiting for two areas of prayer to be answered. I was watching, thinking and almost obsessing about two areas in my life and was waiting for God to show up.
I was like a child. I basically went here is my wishlist prayer God now go be Santa and give me all the prayers right now. I want them all answered in my timing. That is not how God works.
As I was staring at the chimney, really waiting for that one shiny present to be dropped down God walked in the front door and place a gift behind me. It’s an amazing gift that I cherish am, so very excited about. It was just not the one I was focused on.
The funny thing with God is that he knows what is best and we are God’s kids. He’s got us and will lavish us with amazing gifts, even if we think we need something else.
I am so happy that God is the one in charge and I am 100% grateful that he loves us so much. If you don’t believe that keep a prayer and/or blessing journal. God is there and he loves you.